Monday, April 7, 2014

Come With Me

Strings of sunshine floating through the atmosphere,
Suspended in the air causing the flowers to open, the trees to bud,
A giant ball in the sky shining deeply in rays twisting and turning,
Opening up for you and me and putting an end to the darkness in our souls and the ice in our veins,
Somewhere a child is smiling, laughing, joyful,
The umbrellas and snowshoes have been put away it is another day.
The ice is melting, the rivers are flowing,
And we smile and dance in the sunshine.
Come with me now, dance with me,
The big ball in the sky speaks to us,
Come with me, dance with me.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

A Day In the Life

This is a snippet of a piece I am working on now.  It is called Changing Directions, it is piece comprised of chain stitches and French knots.  I’ll share when it’s finished.
It’s been a really long time hasn’t it been?  Maybe you’ve noticed, maybe you haven’t?  Either way it’s time I try to make my dreams come true.  I gave up clear and simple.  I gave up.  I thought I wasn’t a good enough writer and I couldn’t find the words to write anymore.  Very clear and very simple.
Yesterday I went to see Kathy at the Katbird Shop and realized just how much work I produced when I believed I could be an artist, before the divorce, before starting to worry about the future all the time.  It was so much easier to embroider all the time when I wanted to escape, now that I’m free not so easy.  One thing about security besides sometimes feeling like you are in a prison it makes it easy to escape into whatever world you wish to be in.  You have someone else making enough money so you can eat, you have a roof over your head you don’t have to worry about paying for, and the big one you don’t have to worry about being alone.  Loneliness is a tough one.  I hate to be lonely, absolutely hate it.  I will go to a supermarket opening just to avoid sitting in my apartment alone, silly isn’t it?
I took myself to Panera and had a tuna fish sandwich and some chips by myself, the highlight of the afternoon was watching a man clean off his table so beautifully and meticulously and then sit down to drink a cup of coffee.  I was impressed. I am always impressed by a man who takes care of himself.
Now let me get to the point, last night I went to see a Beatles tribute band with some friends.  I had an excellent time.  The guitarist was someone I met in passing previously and he told me he was thinking of giving up playing in bands because he had a full time job which was paying his bills.  I can tell you after seeing him play that would have been a terrible mistake, he’s a damn good guitar player.  The entire band was made up of very good musicians who need his guitar playing. While I was listening to him play, he showed me the errors of my own ways. If you love something and you have since you are a child you have to make it work.  Somehow, someway.   You owe it to yourself and you owe it to those around you, because unfulfilled love will haunt you every day of your life.  Someone out there is waiting to see what you write or waiting to see your next piece of art or waiting to hear your next guitar solo.  Go for it.
And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make (the End by the Beatles).  Be back soon with another day in the life.  Keep stitching!

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Merry Christmas And Happy New Year!

Merry Christmas to you and yours!  Take time to give your family and friends a great big hug and let them know you care no matter what has been going on between you.  Life is much too short to not show appreciation for all that you have especially if that includes a great big diverse family.  Blessings! 

Sunday, November 10, 2013

The Long and Winding Road Revisited

Hi All!  It's holiday season and I have been working on ornaments and other things for a while so this piece has been sitting waiting for me.  Every once in a while I would look at it and it would beckon me.  Put whatever you are doing on the backburner and come back to me.  It seems to be a metaphor for my life and myself at the moment.  Put whatever you are doing on a backburner and figure out what direction you are going in.

This piece brings me peace and joy when I work at it. It silences my mind and makes me believe I'm on a path, on the road.  The rest of my life fills me with questions?  What is my worth?    Will I always be alone?  Will I figure out a way to make money?  Will I finally figure out the road I am supposed to be traveling and where that road is?  I still don't have any answers so therefore anxiety. 

The one thing I do know is that I want to fill my life with beauty, peace and love.  How I am going to do that is a question I guess we all ask ourselves, but that is what I want out of my life.  I want some sort of certainty in a very uncertain world and a very uncertain future.  Perhaps that is why so many people stay in situations that don't work for them because the pain of a situation is a little  more comforting than being suspended in midair with no sure location for where you will land.

So I keep plugging.  I wake up every morning with a day filled with good intentions and then I get sidetracked(kind of like writing a blog while you are supposed to be working on your masterpiece).  It must have been easier in the days of Mozart when there were not quite so many ways to divert ourselves although the artistic mind was scattered even way back when.  But here I am today walking on the long and winding road and wondering how will I find my path?  And then the long and winding road beckons me, it says put what you are doing on the backburner and come back to me.  Turn off your computer and find some beauty and love and peace and joy. I am almost finished keep stitching.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Catching up

It's that time of year when all good crafters minds go to Christmas ornaments and everything Christmas.  The Albany Shaker show is up and running until December 14, they are open Monday thru Saturday from 10 in the morning till 4 in the afternoon, closed on Sunday.  Once again there is a room full of wonderful crafts, Christmas decorations and gifts.  Come and give it a look.

I am busy making ornaments for my other outlets and busy making scarves and bags for a new venue.  I'll let you know more when I am firmly ensconced. I'm also at the Barn in Burnt Hills this Saturday.  It's a lovely venue and if you would like directions let me know.

I have reopened my Etsy shop and will be selling ornaments at the moment.  I have a couple of art shows coming up early next year.  I am so excited about them and have been busy trying to finish the Long And Winding Road in between everything else.  It is really coming along and almost finished.  More information about the art shows as they get a little closer.

I hope this posting finds everyone well and happy and creative.  Will write again soon.  Deb

Tuesday, October 15, 2013


She was floating in the middle of a lake, the most beautiful color of blue she had ever seen. The water was so still and serene.  The lake was surrounded by tiny white crystals of sand, the beautiful smooth feeling sand of the tropics not the coarse sand of the Northeast.    As she was floating she could see all way down to the bottom, seeing the reflection of the small pebbles on the bottom in the sun.
She was out there alone, immobile in peace.  She had nowhere to go, nobody to see, no responsibilities at the moment.  She was in complete peacefulness.  A beautiful serenity enveloped her.  She had such a beautiful time floating around aimlessly drinking in all the beauty.  She was floating far enough out there where nothing could reach her except a cool, gentle breeze.  She felt so safe and secure out there floating around.  It was as if nothing could reach her and she could just find a moment’s peace.  Floating, floating, floating.   She wanted to bottle that feeling so that she could feel it all the time.
And then she opened her eyes in her living room.  Namaste.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

I Need You

I Need You
I need you to be here to pick me up when I fall,
I need you to be here when I hear the children cry,
I need you to be here when I see the waters overflow the shoreline,
I need you to tell me it will not start raining and never stop,
I need you to kiss the back of my neck and remind me that I am loved,
Unconditionally, totally.
I need you here in body not just in spirit.
I need you when I see the connections everywhere and do not understand what they mean,
I need you to find me when I am lost.
I need you to bring me to heaven on earth.
I need you to remind me that everything will be all right while the world collapses around us.
While children go hungry, while woman are victimized, when our brothers are angry and need comfort themselves.
Show me you are real when I need to believe in something.
We all need to believe in something.
We are all one and when one of us is in chaos we are all in chaos.
I need you when I look into the eyes of my brother and feel pain.
I need you where are you?  Show me you are real.
I’ve worked so hard to find you, where are you?
I need you when I hear the voices crying out in pain.
When I get the feeling that someone that I love is alone and despondent.
If you’ve given me the ability to feel pain please come and give me the ability to feel joy.
I need you please find me.  Please find us all.
Hold my hand and together we can change the world if only for a moment.
I need you to help me find peace and love and understanding.
I just need you.