Friday, September 1, 2017

Starting Over Again

I was inspired to write this post by a remarkable Facebook friend.  This purse was the beginning of my artistic life.  I had been a crafter for years but somewhere about 10 years ago I became an artist.  Now I'm a single woman supporting myself and working as a server.  I recently left a job that made me comfortable as a server but uncomfortable as a woman trying to support herself.  I had made many friends there and it was heartbreaking to leave my friends.

Now I'm working as a server elsewhere just down the road a bit.  I'm working nights in a restaurant known for it's mornings.  It's really out of my comfort zone but it's too early to know what it holds for me.  I have been embroidering more and using it as stress relief.  I haven't made any friends yet but for the most part they are very nice and helpful.  My anxiety has been through the roof though.  So the embroidering has allowed me to breathe.

My art and my beautiful son and friends are my only constant and I'm not sure when or how much I will be able to see them.  Still I'm moving forward so that is good.  There are a lot of people in the world right now getting used to a new reality and I'm hoping that the positives outweigh the negatives for all of us.  Blessings if you read this.  I hope to get a little better at updating.  See you soon.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Peace and Circles

This is Peace!  My lovely friend Lisa commissioned this piece or Peace because she was worried about me.  I seem to make all the people who love me worry about me every once in a while.  She's worried and I'm a little worried because a job I love only needs me two days a week and after a month or two of really crappy hours I'm in full out panic mode.  Now I've been working(or to be honest not working) on the Peace for a couple of months while I've been having just a wee bit of a meltdown.

After weeks of crying and looking for another serving position(since I truly love being a server) I'm kind of at the end of my rope.  It's a wee bit demoralizing to beg for hours and be turned down for a new position both at the same time.  Lisa reminded me that I have another job, that of being an artist and to get going on her Peace so she can pay me.  She knew it wasn't really about the money but the peace I find in my embroidery needle, floss and colors not to mention the beloved French knots.  I had forgotten I was an artist somewhere swimming around in uncertainty world.

So midway between my mini vacation from the working world I have finally taken her advice and started stitching again.  I have about two hours left on the peace and then onto another commission for another friend.  I feel so much better about my plight or at least a little more relaxed about it anyway.  Not quite sure how I will pay my bills but it might at least make me relaxed enough that I can just enjoy the people I serve however many days I work.  I love to see empty dishes almost as much as I love French knots(I know go figure).

We all need a little peace so find something you love and do it!  I'm so thankful to Lisa and the rest of my friends and family for their support and love.  I'll be ok, have embroidery hoop will travel.  Keep stitching!

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

A Little Spring

This is my cherry blossom tree.  If you like it it's available at Valley Artisans Market.  I'm sharing it to remind myself it's spring.  It doesn't feel much like spring in this neck of the woods.  Doesn't feel much like spring in my heart either.  Stormy, dark and gloomy, only for the moment though.  Been dealing with some stuff and just a wee bit sad.  Haven't embroidered much lately, always feel blue when I'm not embroidering.  Must be that idle hands are the devils workshop thing.

My wonderful son turned 26 recently.  He's a great man, very kind and warm and responsible.  I'm very proud of him, after all he is my greatest creation.  I worked myself into a tizzy looking through an old photo album.  So many happy times,  it's pretty clear I adored him even then.  It all goes by so fast.  A completely different life.

The world is moving at breakneck speed even faster since Trump became our president.  Not getting too political but maybe god is feeling cold and stormy too?  Maybe it's time to be inspired and start embroidering and writing a blog post once in a while.  I think this is it for the moment.  Keep on stitching.

Monday, May 1, 2017

Hi There!

Hi All!  This is the Pond.  It's a piece I made for my show at Valley Artisans Market back in February.  It was very exciting. It's been a really long time since I've written anything but I went down the rabbit hole of my past and read a few posts that I wrote when I wrote too much.  So here I am.  I'm still an artist and still a member of Valley Artisans Market and I'm still a server.  I work at my local Cracker Barrel and I love it.  My son lives within walking distance and he has made me a very proud mother.  He is handsome, charming, responsible and has a good job.

I'm pretty well used to being alone.  I still wonder if I'm going to meet Prince Charming but happy enough to live life without him.  I've got great friends and my trusty dog and I'm so happy spring has sprung.  I'm still trying to find my way, keeping stitching and working and sane enough to appreciate how much my life has changed.

I'm gonna try and revive my blog and share my embroidery and see what happens.  It's late and I'm tired so it was just a catch up post.  Be happy and keep stitching!  P.S.  The Pond is still available at Valley Artisans Market.

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Phoenix is Rising

Hi!  It's been a really long time hence the title.  A lot has changed since we've last met.  I have a job.  I'm a server at my local Cracker Barrel and I love it!  Love the people I work with, the guests I interact with and love being able to pay my bills.  I've also recently begun embroidering a bit more.  I'm still pursuing my art but on an admittedly slower basis and still a member of Valley Artisans Market.

I don't know if this blog post is a new beginning or just a check in.  I guess we'll have to wait and see.  I take it one day at a time and try to keep moving forward.  I've been working on Gutted quite a bit.  I started it in 2013 but I've really been getting into it now that I'm a little less Gutted myself. I still find embroidery to be the fastest way to find peace. 

I guess if I have a message for this post its just to keep on stitching.  Your whole world can be coming apart at the seams but if you just take it one stitch at a time and keep moving forward your life can and will improve.  Test your own interpretation of who you think you are and what you are capable of.  Push past it and find out who you really are.  Let people in so you can enjoy it.  And let anything that hurts you go.  I still believe God wants us to be happy and in a world where we can't change anything but ourselves make yourself happy and radiate outward.  Keep stitching till we meet again.

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Marmalade Skies

Well it's been a while, a long while.  I've not quite found my voice or my vision yet but I haven't given up.  This piece is called Marmalade Skies and it was inspired by the Beatles.  When I think of marmalade skies I think of some sort of psychedelic dream.  Most of my work is inspired by some sort of psychedelic dream.  I get stuck when I change my vision and try to do work that will appeal to the masses coming from my slightly more than ordinary mind.  Stuck in the mud of brown and ecru and country red.

Not that there is anything wrong with brown and ecru and country red but my heart sings for turquoise, orange and lime green.  Color wakes me up from the ordinary world of perfection that lies outside my window on a sunny day.  I can't compete with Gods vision.  I can't recreate the sound of the birds, the briskness of the air, or the snow glistening on the pavement. I can only march down the road of making my life more colorful.  Of making my heart sing even if it is only to old Beatle songs.

I've realized in the past few months that the only thing we have any control over is our own selves.  When we try to march to society's drum we get stuck in a parade of not our own making.  So I've written a blog post and spent a few precious hours working on a vision and that will have to be enough for today.  God Bless and keep stitching.

Monday, February 9, 2015

Spring Ahead

Hi All!  It's been a while but I think it's time to come back and try again so here I am.  I've missed all of you and missed writing too.  I've continued to make work and embroider and have a few tricks up my sleeve and lovely pictures to accompany them but that's for another day.

It's very hard to admit that you've been stuck in 2 feet of snow in your mind.  But I've been stuck in two feet of snow in my mind.  My mind was so jumbled for a while, I couldn't really find my way out.  In the meantime I've made many beautiful pieces, found many beautiful friends both old and new, loved my beautiful son and added a dog to the mix.  I've got a lovely part time job doing work I really enjoy with people I enjoy doing it with. My life is so much better and I have so much to be grateful for.

But writing on my blog was elusive.  It was a failure really. I guess when you are stuck in the negative mindset of your mind and everything you love becomes in your mind the only way out you get stuck there.  I tried to deal with my issues without medication so it took a little longer to shovel out the snow or the fog or whatever you want to call it.  But I feel like I'm ready to share my art and share my thoughts every once in a while.  I'm not sure I will ever get back to the daily everyday writing but when you consider yourself an artist and a writer you have to at least try.  So..............

This is my response to the 2 feet of snow outside my window.  Embroider a spring tree and spring forward.  Yesterday was yesterday can't go backwards doesn't work so move forward.  Think about the sunny days ahead and take care of the snow on your walkway and the snow in your mind.  Love the people you love even if they don't love you. Accept responsibility for your shortcomings and try.  So I will share some really beautiful colorful pieces and try to find colorful entertaining words to accompany them.  Keep stitching, keep loving, keep trying!  Hopefully it's never too late. Hugs.  Deb