Tangled Stitch

I woke up so strong this morning, like anything is possible.   It’s a new and unique feeling; one which comes from survival.   Doing the one thing you didn’t think you could do and surviving doing it.   Now I have a lot of choices, first of them finding some gainful employment and charting a life for myself.   I still want to do it on my terms so not quite ready to do the conventional corporate thing yet.   I have faith in God and the universe that the answer is out there somewhere and hopefully with the holidays almost upon us I will sell enough of my work to keep my head above water while I wait for my marriage to end. Peter and I have finally reached the peaceful part of our marriage ending, the part where the decisions have been made and we are just waiting for it to be over.   It’s brought a kind of peacefulness to the process.   He’s moving on, I’m moving on.   We’re evolving.   I do hope for our son’s sake that we can somehow...

All of my life I have been falling down rabbit holes.  Things would be going smoothly and I would be following my dreams and then something would happen in the world or my world and I would shut down and fall down a rabbit hole.  I solved puzzles, or played solitaire or lost myself in my work(which was a productive rabbit hole to fall down). To be honest and authentic  I've spent a lot of my life lost in one drama or another.  Perhaps I'm a drama queen stuck in a drama habit or perhaps I'm just a sensitive soul that has a hard time navigating through the real world without getting detoured. Really doesn't matter, if you are lost in your head or in my case trying to escape, it is very easy to forget the plans and forget the dreams and just wake up every morning with an endless to do list and a million ways to waste your time doing things that really aren't all that important.  And then one night in the middle of the night you wake up and you look at all the thi...

Sometimes the time between your dream and the completion of that dream is a transition period.  This piece is called Transitions and it is available at Valley Artisans Market. Everyone has dreams, big dreams, small dreams, just dreams.  The ability to create a vision of that dream is very important as are the actions taken to follow that dream.   I still need a plan but I am taking action.  So the glass is half full.  I prefer the half full theory as to the half empty theory. I am figuring out that it is not just the dream but the importance in your life that you give to your dreams and the importance you give to the naysayers.  I was reminded today of how someone else's plan for your life has the ability to take your day in a completely different direction then the day you had planned on working towards your dream.  And then I remembered that I am the captain of my boat of dreams and I have the ability to steer my boat where I wis...

The title of this piece is Redemption.  Sooner or later in our lives we all need redemption.  The world we create is a world of thoughts, sort of the black cloud following us where ever we go.  That is if we choose to believe there is a black cloud following us. If we believe in love and faith, we tend to live a life of love and faith.  If we keep our own thoughts uppermost in our minds, we can believe anything.  Including the idea that we are connected to the world  and each other through those thoughts. I believe if everybody just prayed to the God they believe in or the universe and prayed for peace, it could possible catch on and we could live in the blue sunny part of life instead of the hell we drag with us every day.  Try something different and try to be positive one entire day and discard those hellish thoughts that don't really define all of us made in God's image.  There are so many negative messages being delivered from so many d...

This post is inspired by my mother who gave up her hopes and dreams so she could foster the dreams of my brother and me.   She did not get a chance to follow her dreams when we grew up. She passed away before she could do that.   I am sitting at that exact moment in my own life and am moving forward to my dreams.   My son is 21 years old.   He will be a senior in college in September.   He will meet a lovely girl and marry and leave to live his own life.   He is old enough to follow his dreams.   He’s a great kid, very sensible and responsible and I am sure he will be able to accomplish anything he wishes in life. Every moment in life is a new beginning.   A chance to look at the choices we have and choose the path we want to walk down.   We have to find ourselves in the light at the end of the tunnel.   For months my soul has been talking to me, saying turn off the music, meditate, find the things you love, let go of the rest an...

Today I am going off the reservation once again but not too far off.  Daniel Murphy just inspires me, what can I say.  Daniel Murphy has played for the Mets since 2008.  For most of his career he has been criticized for his fielding, suffered several horrible injuries, and still maintains a great productive, inspiring career as a New York Met slugger. There is just no giving up for Daniel, two years in a row he had serious injuries to his knees, last year's being one of the most disheartening for this fan.  He has so much potential and it was just plain sad to see him out for the season the second year in a row. Thankfully this year Daniel has found his spot in the roster,  and his hitting is getting as much attention as his fielding(which I think is just fine).   Last night he drove in 5 of the Met's 9 runs and I was lucky enough to be walking in front of my television to see him hit a 3 run homer.  Just joyous.  I don't really watch televisi...

This beautiful baby is named Nicolette.  She is a beautiful teenager by now.  This was taken by her mother on her christening day and she is wearing a christening outfit that I made. We are all given God given talents.  We usually discover them in childhood because that is when our brains are open to learning and we don't have the busy day to day responsibilities or woes to get in the way.  When we are children, we are just children.  I was a child when my grandmother taught me how to crochet,knit and hand embroider.  They have been a constant companion most of my life.  It is rare to see me without a needle of one sort or another. I have the god given talent to be blessed with a gift of gab.  A compassionate and empathetic soul.  A wonderful smile and eyes that are welcoming to everyone who comes my way.  I think that makes me a magnet for people to talk to.  All of my life I have never had a problem finding people to share t...

 The Parrot And the Butterfly The parrot sits in her cage all day, Waiting for someone to take her away, She sits and she waits for someone to speak, Anyone everyone so she has something to say. No words of her own, they were too unimportant, Who should listen to me I have nothing to say, And then one day, much to her sur p rise, She was a butterfly when she opened her eyes. She lived in a cocoon shaped like her cage, No mirror around, never noticed her plumage, Beautiful really, in all vibrant colors, A unique thing of beauty she was in her image. She looked around and wondered what shall I  be, And she heard a sweet voice say look for the key, Where is the key she asked with a sigh, The key is your heart and with that said goodbye. She looked out the window and saw the sun, And she realized it’s put there for everyone, So she put her wings together and slid out of the cage. And flew away home, free as a bird, And tol...

As I was sitting here trying to figure out what I should do with my day, I was struck by the thought that I really don't know how to take care of myself.  I have been so inundated with the thoughts of others my whole life that I don't know how to take care of myself and how to protect myself.  I don't know how to do just about anything because I am afraid of how it will make me look to others. I know I'm a good friend, and a good mother and I was a good daughter to my parents. I'm kind, compassionate, a good listener, a pretty good artist and I love to write and tell tales.  Hence the blog. And yet  I know that somehow when I was a child I got the idea that I was never quite good enough being just me.  I had to be smarter, taller, quieter, thinner, more industrious.  In other words I just had to be somebody else or so I thought.  I've thought that same thought every single day of my life.   So instead of  trying to sugar coat my day, I've...

Beyond The Yellow Brick Road is available on my Etsy shop.  It signifies the journey my soul has been on the last few months, a time of change, and growth. The road we travel on can be very dark, but sometimes in traveling through the dark we can find the light at the end of the tunnel.  There is always light at the end of a dark night of the soul if we hang on long enough. Our souls and our minds work together to remind us that we are not alone.  Our soul is connected to all of the bodies we've lived in since the beginning of time and all the soul's connections  we've known since the beginning of time When we start living by our souls and our hearts, our head has no choice but to come along for the ride.  Our head has to follow and join the parts of who we are as mere mortals with our hearts and  our souls and make us complete.  We come full circle and become the person we are meant to be.  The person our soul and our heart want us to be....

Peacefully sitting on the shore, Silently wishing for something more, A life not lived to the full extent, Periods of time spent in discontent. A childhood dream that is long forgotten, A heart and soul that are misbegotten, A flash of remembrance, a bolt of light, A long held wish in the dead of night. Oh please God give me just one more chance, Oh please God, let me live and learn to dance the dance, I promise I can do it if you'll just hear me call, I'm sorry oh lord I never woke up from the fall. Then all of a sudden a flash of light, Go forward dear woman into the night, To follow up on your every hope and dream, Things are always so much better than they seem. So forward I went with a lengthy pause, A life full of purpose and meaningful cause, To talk to the children who's dreams are still young, And show them the way to write their own song. For the dreams of our childhood are the ones that we keep, They haunt us forever if we just let them...

This piece is called Flowery Cross, it is framed in a 5x7 black frame and will be available on Etsy. When it comes right down to it we all have to trust and believe in something.  Do we trust the inner guidance of our souls or do we trust the real world? I believe in the power of a dream and the power of my soul.  I also believe it is possible to both trust the real world and trust our dream world. Sometimes we have to take a day job to be able to trust our dreams.  I truly believe in living from my soul and from my heart.  I would not have the life I have today did I not believe in things that others don't ordinarily see.  I believe in synchronicity and happenstance and that everything happens for a reason.  If something is destined to happen it's gonna happen eventually, all we have to do is look around in nature to see that.  Flowers don't have to fill out job applications or trust in their dreams they just grow, naturally and freely.  Bu...

This piece is called The Leap.  It is the newest piece in my Etsy shop. Hi All!  This was going to be my first piece listed on Etsy, but I don't think I was really ready for the Leap to happen.    Right now though the only thing I can think of is the Leap into my dreams of the present.  I'm at one of those strange times in your lives when everything is saying move on but there are no clear answers to what direction that should take.  So being a hand embroidery artist with a blog and an Etsy account here I am. I am so ready for the rest of my life to begin.  To move on in a way that allows me to be authentic and real.  The authentic DebraAnn likes to talk a blue streak so therefore my blog will always have more words then people want to read.  So if you stop after the first sentence where it tells you that this piece is available on Etsy so be it.  The authentic DebraAnn loves to embroider,  I really love it.  I've co...