Thursday, July 26, 2012

Have Love Will Travel

The journey to find our soul begins with a single step.  My step begins with hand embroidery and ends with a way to find a living being true to myself and my god and living by the spiritual principles I believe in.  I believe God will find a way for me to become a productive, loving, peaceful individual which is who I was to begin with.

The journey starts today with a trip to see my beautiful loving Godmother Madeline who has loved me and stabilized me since I was a little girl and the beautiful brave warrior princess LuAnn who I idolized as a young girl and who I idolize even more today as a completely inspiring breast cancer survivor.  I know I will come full circle and return from the windy, peaceful Taconic and the traffic laden streets of New York City to find my own personal warrior princess with gifts of love from God and the universe.

Hand embroidery and computer with me as I chronicle my journey to recapture my soul.  I will write about the wonderful things I have found on my road trip and enjoy some really good pizza for it is this Mediterranean princess’s favorite meal. While I am feeding the soul and going back to my roots I will appreciate the time and effort needed to make a beautiful piece of hand embroidered art as well.  It is a gift from God to be given a vocation that adds so much beauty and reflection and reminds you of your soul and your God with every stitch.

I will add pictures of my work and my travels accordingly.  I will find a life where I can devote myself to finding love, inner peace and hand embroidery trust in God that he would not have given me these talents if he did not want me to use them.  I trust that God will help me find the path that will express love, peace and meditation the best while sharing the beauty and commonalities of all of us.

What I take with me is that you must not sacrifice yourself just to live a life that doesn’t define who you are and what you believe in.  We are only on this earth for a short time and we must find ourselves in the universe and remember the talents we are given and give them back to others. 
This is my last blog post for Tangled Stitch on Google.  I will be moving my blog to Wordpress and will combine the love of embroidery, the passion of politics and the mysteries of  life as I see them on my journey to the soul and finding a life that appreciates all that it has been given.
I appreciate all of the love and concern of everyone in my life who loved me enough to find a path for me but I think I have to find it on my own. Have Love Will Travel. 

Friday, July 20, 2012

The Life of a Tree

The tree of life is open and wanting and transformational.   We lose old habits and sprout new ones like buds forming on our branches.  We seek the sun and it’s warmth as the leaves on a tree sway towards the sun.  We suffer like a tree when we lose our branches because of an exceptionally strong wind or a disease that withers away part of our human trees.

Trees are eternal until we cut them down.  Our souls are eternal like the tree.  Each one of us is different just as each tree is different.  The amount of sunlight, love and pruning of a tree equal the amount of sunlight, love and pruning of our souls.  Cutting off the parts that no longer serve us and making the parts that remain stronger.  The oldest part of the tree is the wild and woolly part at the top where it takes more than a mortal man to tame, just as the oldest part of a person is that part which he has carried since he was a child and is usually the hardest to tame.

They say the talents we find as children are the answers to our blissful questions in life.  They can usually be found in the minds of what we loved when we were children.   Inside a tree we can find out how old the tree is, how wise it is, how long it has survived by its rings.  In the heart of a human adult we can usually find how old the soul is, how wise it is and how it has survived the years it has endured also.

We carry our hearts around protecting them like the wild and woolly leaves that sway gently at the top of a tree during a storm.  We build fortresses around our heart to protect our hearts but all we really have to do is sway.  Let the good and the bad move in and out of our lives like leaves swaying in a storm that will protect us from losing our hearts forever.

We as humans can learn a lot from trees and their strength as it is hard to bring down a mature tree without a little help from Mother Nature.  We can learn a lot about ourselves by remembering our own strengths and our own human natures.

The blessings of a tree are countless.  The tree provides shade from the sun.  It provides wood for the heat.  It provides food for sustenance and aromatics for the nose.  The blessings of our human bodies are countless too.  We provide love from the sun, a quiet breeze of a smile, a sway of the dance and the strength to endure many human trials.

Bless a tree, bless yourselves and may you grow many rings and endure many struggles by swaying like the leaves in a brisk wind.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

I Fell Down a Rabbit Hole

All of my life I have been falling down rabbit holes.  Things would be going smoothly and I would be following my dreams and then something would happen in the world or my world and I would shut down and fall down a rabbit hole.  I solved puzzles, or played solitaire or lost myself in my work(which was a productive rabbit hole to fall down). To be honest and authentic  I've spent a lot of my life lost in one drama or another.  Perhaps I'm a drama queen stuck in a drama habit or perhaps I'm just a sensitive soul that has a hard time navigating through the real world without getting detoured.

Really doesn't matter, if you are lost in your head or in my case trying to escape, it is very easy to forget the plans and forget the dreams and just wake up every morning with an endless to do list and a million ways to waste your time doing things that really aren't all that important.  And then one night in the middle of the night you wake up and you look at all the things and worries you don't need and you can see very clearly the life you want to have and the one you have to put away.

So for the next few days I will be living in the real world and not the exciting virtual one of Word Mojo and Youtube videos and take stock of where I am and where I am going.  I will meditate, unclutter, and hopefully fit a little creativity in while I take stock of my broken life and climb out of the latest rabbit hole.

I can see clearly the hopes and dreams that are calling me, so now it is time to let go and let God and the universe lead me out of the rabbit hole and into my future.  To sort through the unimportant so I have space for the very important.  A life filled with love and hope and dreams traveling the path least traveled. We don't get many second chances in life, never mind forty or fifty but I'm taking my ball of thread and moving on with a song in my heart and a needle in my hand.  My blog will be a casualty for a few days while I sort through my non virtual life, but I'll be back with a picture of my bedroom that does not look like a hoarders episode(thankfully it's really not that bad).  And hopefully some pictures of some creativity along the way.

I will probably be answering email so if you need me you know where to find me.  Even rabbits get lonely.  But I hope that while I am sorting out my life, I will inspire you to sort out your own because we only have a very short time here in this body, on this planet, with these talents and dreams and we need every minute to fill our lives with love, and peace and hope.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

A Funky Soul Day

This funky soul is Lucinda.  She is currently living at Valley Artisans Market looking for the right man or woman to take her home. She is hand embroidered.

I am the authentically funky soul today.  No earthly delights seem to be working on this funk that goes way down to the soul day.   Perhaps it's the clouds, perhaps it's the temperature, perhaps it's just a day to remember so I can rejoice on a happy soul day.

Funky is a cool word.  You think of Funky Chicken and you smile.You hear a funky tune and it makes you move and if your soul feels in a funk you try to protect yourself a bit.  I fit into that last category so I'm listening to Mozart cos I'm a little too sensitive for words at the moment.

I'm working up at VAM( my favorite place on earth), hand embroidering,(my favorite thing to do) and listening to all kinds of music which usually rocks my world and soothes my savage beastly soul.  But today nothing is really doing it, not even Aretha Franklin.

So I'm gonna spare you the rest of the funkiness and hopefully tomorrow will be a happy soul day.  And if it turns out to be a universally funky day for you too, please comment so I know my funky little soul isn't alone.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

A Little Sunshine to Meditate

Couldn't we all use a little more sunshine in our lives?  Sometimes when we are stuck in the middle of a dark and windy road we can use a litttle sunshine for the soul.  A reason to wake up and smell the roses or the coffee.

I have recently taken up meditation, to new age music, to silence, to chants, to classical music.  Any of them will take me where I want to go.  I close my eyes, breathe deeply and am transported to a simpler time and place.  A place of beauty and peace.  A place where even the most difficult questions can be answered peacefully.

Of course then I open my eyes and I am still having a wee bit of trouble getting back into the real world, but since I've started meditating I find that the minute I become present with my breath I can make it go away.  It is one of the greatest gifts I can give to myself. 

My human brain is very busy, it can take molehills and make them into a mountain range.  I appreciate the ability to find peace even if it is only a temporary peace.  I am finding that if I give myself the gift of a few minutes of meditation I can come down the mountain much faster and at least settle into molehill territory.

That is my gift for you today.  If you cannot just close your eyes and meditate(it's difficult at first) there are wonderful mantras and guided meditations on Youtube that can help you on your way.  There are many different types of meditations and you have to find the right one for yourself, but I can say that once you learn how to get there any road will take you.  Blessings and have peace and beauty while you meditate.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Money Can't Buy You Love

If the world is a reflection of who you are then I am one wonderful person.  I had a craft show this weekend and sold a pillow.  But you know what money can’t buy you love and I had such a lovely weekend when it came to human interaction and inspiration I think I had a great weekend.

The business part wasn’t so bad, it means I have to think up some new ideas and change my focus a tad bit.  The christening outfit which I was just inspired to make got the most attention so I’m going to add that back into my bag of tricks.  And the small framed pieces also got a lot of attention so onward and forward and better luck next time.

This piece is called Just Hand.  I met the lovely young woman who purchased it at The Katbird Shop and it was just a pleasure to meet her and talk to her.  She loved the piece and I have to admit it was one of my favorites to make.  It was made just for the love of embroidery and it is wonderful that someone saw that love and loved it too.

I met a few spiritual wanderers also, I love to talk about spirituality and the big picture of life and the universe gave me quite a few lovely people to talk to about it.  I spoke to quite a few women who went through what I am going through and that gave me hope for the future.  And there were quite a few inspiring artists who have figured out a way to make their art their livelihood so that was a high point too.

But the thing I will carry away from this weekend is the kindness and compassion and connectedness of the human spirit.  I had quite a few conversations about the things that really matter in this world, talking to the kindest, most compassionate people I was lucky enough to spend time with.

I am an open book, when I bleed people can see a trail of blood for miles.  Sometimes that is a blessing sometimes a curse. This weekend, I found that if you open up your heart and you are honest about what is going on in there, you will find you are not alone.  I felt surrounded and loved by a kind and compassionate world. Everyone has a story to tell but we are taught usually when we are children, that some things should remain private.  When you follow a truck on the highway and chronicle your mental breakdown on your blog not much is private.

Now I can look back at that time and see the pearl hidden inside the clam shell. The pearl is that people hurt, they feel bad, and they hide their pain.   They close the clam shell never to let anybody know the private pain they suffer.  I am here to tell you that if you open the clamshell and talk about your pain, really talk about it; you will find everybody has their own pearl.  You are not alone.  There is light at the end of the tunnel.  We are all connected by the happiness, the joy, the inspiration and yes the sorrow of our lives.

I am oh so thankful for the people I traveled the path with this weekend.  For those dealing with their own pain, best wishes and a compassionate ear is always here to listen.  If you need a bit more than a friendly ear I can recommend someone.  Talk to other people, give them a chance to comfort you and perhaps you will realize they have their own secrets too.  Give blessings for the lessons of the day.  And remember money can’t buy you love but being honest with yourself and others can. 

The song of the day is by the Beatles back in the 60's.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

What Are You Doing For the Rest of Your Life?

I don’t really have an answer to that question but it is a lovely song by Johnny Mathis.  Since anything I can write today about myself will be pretty pitiful I’m going to write about music.  I love music.  I love to dance, I love to sing.

Music has the ability to pick you up and drop you off in any destination you wish to visit.  It transcends life.  Whether it is the voice of an angel like Andrea Bocelli or the bluesy grrrr of the Black Keys, the music picks you up and carries to a place you might like to visit.

I love to listen to Chopin and imagine myself a child sitting next to him on the piano bench totally enamored of the beauty of his piano. It really is amazing to listen to the fingers going through all those keys so quickly and so beautifully. 

I imagine myself sitting in a room with Mozart just closing my eyes and letting the beauty of his music take me away, there is such a lightness and reverential feeling to his music.  His music makes me feel closer to God in some way.

I can listen to Andrea Bocelli and hear the voice of an angel, I can imagine the feelings he is feeling even though I cannot understand the words he is singing.  His music brought me through one of the darkest periods of my life.

The Black Keys sing songs that give me reminder of my younger days and introduced me to the blues. The range between their bluesy first cd and the peppy last cd is just incredible.  Every cd sounds different but yet you can still tell that it is the Black Keys. There is a thread that winds through their early music and their latest music telling a story of perseverance and hard work and incredible music.

Finally we come to the song of the day.  I love this song, it has been sung by so many different singers including Frank Sinatra to Barbara Streisand, but something about Johnny Mathis and his beautiful velvety voice that just makes me melt when I hear this song.  I just imagine that dreamy feeling of love at first bloom and the wonder of a life lived with love and romance and hope.  Just the feeling I want to leave this blog post with.

There are so many beautiful songs sung by Johnny Mathis and beautiful versions of this song so follow some of the suggestions on Youtube and hopefully it will leave you with a beautiful feeling too.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Dream a Little Dream of Me

Sometimes the time between your dream and the completion of that dream is a transition period.  This piece is called Transitions and it is available at Valley Artisans Market.

Everyone has dreams, big dreams, small dreams, just dreams.  The ability to create a vision of that dream is very important as are the actions taken to follow that dream.   I still need a plan but I am taking action.  So the glass is half full.  I prefer the half full theory as to the half empty theory.

I am figuring out that it is not just the dream but the importance in your life that you give to your dreams and the importance you give to the naysayers.  I was reminded today of how someone else's plan for your life has the ability to take your day in a completely different direction then the day you had planned on working towards your dream.  And then I remembered that I am the captain of my boat of dreams and I have the ability to steer my boat where I wish to in the moment.

I am working on a christening outfit which is coming right along.  I have made it a goal to finish it by the weekend and I am thinking I might just be able to do that if I don't take on water and start to sink into dream oblivion.  I have to be honest though in saying I am already living the dream.  I have not made a christening outfit in such a long time that I forgot just how much peace and joy I get out of creating them with a lovely tune in the background.  It doesn't even matter at this point whether someone dreams of putting it on their baby; I have dreamed it, created it and loved it without a pattern, just me and the universe working on this piece together. I am moving my dream forward.

That is why I feel the glass is half full instead of the glass being half empty.  In the past, that few moments of  someone else planning my life,  would have become a day or a week or a few hours of solitaire playing and a couple of hours on the computer after that.  I took a deep breath realized how important it is for me to finish this dress before the weekend and I turned off the computer and started working.  That may not be someone else’s version of living the dream but it is mine.  Maybe when it is finished I will make the plan for the rest of my dream life but at the moment all I can think of is reaching my goal in peace and joy
My dream is probably not all that important to anyone else, but it is important to me.  Follow your dreams even though you may be the only one who believes in them, if it brings you joy or brings you peace it’s a good thing and if your dream makes you feel supported by the universe even better.

The song of the day is called Dream a Little Dream of Me and I love this version by Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong.