Saturday, June 23, 2007
This purse is one of my closet purses. One of the purses I made that I threw in my closet unlined and unfinished because I wasn't sure anybody else would like them. As you can see it is now lined in this beautiful green satin and finished. It says a lot about me and my vision of myself. I have wanted to make beautiful purses and beautiful clothing for years but somehow I kept on making pillows and chackis because that is what sold. I would make beautiful things and either put them in my closet unfinished or sell them. I never would keep any of my creations for myself. I would literally sell other people my wares to give as gifts and not give them to anyone myself. That changed a few years ago but I realize that it says an awful lot about me. It means I was not a risk taker, that inside me is this wacky off center artist and I wanted people to think I was this subdued boring ordinary person never assuming too much responsibility or assuming to jump out of this box I put myself in. I lived a lot of my life being a fly on the wall hiding my uniqueness and talents. A lot of my life. I also spent a lot of my life hoping to blend into the wood work and have people like me. That really is not a way to live your life. It takes a certain boldness and courage to be who you are. To line your purses and move on with your life. I guess what I am trying to say is be yourself, even if that person doesn't match and throws purses which come from their soul into their closet. Be unafraid, step out of the closet and sometimes you get lucky and life turns out to be what you wanted it to be or even better. The only hard part is letting people know you've been a fake without having them think you are crazy. I will have to let you know how that works out because I'm still jumping out of the closet. Sometimes I feel like I have a leg and sometimes a foot, but I'm getting there. Keep stitchin.