I live to be inspired. I am inspired by hand embroidery, fibers, textures,art, music and life in general.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
This piece is called Transitions it is available at Valley Artisans Market.
Transitions is the name of my game at the moment. Sometimes in our lives we just have to keep moving forward to transition to a different life even when the life we were leading looks just dandy to those who don't live with us.
I guess the point of my post is, you and I can never tell what happens behind anybody's door. We live our lives in secret telling only our closest friends and family what is going on and why we are doing what we are doing. That leaves the door wide open for gossip and innuendo and leaves all of us going through these kinds of transitions shell-shocked and down right crazy(in my case)
I don't know anything at the moment. Half of the time I'm looking to go apply in McDonalds just so I can move out of my house. The other half is saying finding a job isn't that easy so I'll just write my blog and pretend I'm a writer and make my art and pretend I'm an artist. Problem is I am a writer and I am an artist and the only things I can write about at this moment are the things that people don't talk about so my blog is boring and repetitious while I try to motivate myself to make art.
I'm still writing my blog and embroidering every day but the fun part of finding themes and songs and whimsical pieces of art are kind of lost at the moment. Everything is in transition. Some of my work is unfinished, I'm not feeling whimsical most of the time and spiritually my whole being is in transition so my work is either too iconic or kind of depressing. Writing my blog has become a bunch of unfinished blog posts waiting for a happier ending. I kind of wish at this moment that I was a songwriter and I could make myself sing the blues like Billie Holiday or Aretha Franklin.
But I'm not Billie Holiday or Aretha Franklin or any of the other beautifully creative artists who are my facebook friends and bloggy friends. I'm kind of rowing against a rip tide. Every writing site I visit says talk from your heart but my heart is broken and has been much of this year.
So forgive me for being a little too frank and at the same time not being frank enough. To be honest I think a lot of the problems we are having now are from me being a little too frank while I was crazy(stone cold crazy). I'm still hoping one day to wake up and find something truly inspiring to say and share some truly inspiring art work of my own. Have a great day and if one other person reads this and says oh thank god I thought it was just me I will have done my job for the day(and yes you can be thankful that you are not me at the moment).