Thursday, July 19, 2012

I Fell Down a Rabbit Hole

All of my life I have been falling down rabbit holes.  Things would be going smoothly and I would be following my dreams and then something would happen in the world or my world and I would shut down and fall down a rabbit hole.  I solved puzzles, or played solitaire or lost myself in my work(which was a productive rabbit hole to fall down). To be honest and authentic  I've spent a lot of my life lost in one drama or another.  Perhaps I'm a drama queen stuck in a drama habit or perhaps I'm just a sensitive soul that has a hard time navigating through the real world without getting detoured.

Really doesn't matter, if you are lost in your head or in my case trying to escape, it is very easy to forget the plans and forget the dreams and just wake up every morning with an endless to do list and a million ways to waste your time doing things that really aren't all that important.  And then one night in the middle of the night you wake up and you look at all the things and worries you don't need and you can see very clearly the life you want to have and the one you have to put away.

So for the next few days I will be living in the real world and not the exciting virtual one of Word Mojo and Youtube videos and take stock of where I am and where I am going.  I will meditate, unclutter, and hopefully fit a little creativity in while I take stock of my broken life and climb out of the latest rabbit hole.

I can see clearly the hopes and dreams that are calling me, so now it is time to let go and let God and the universe lead me out of the rabbit hole and into my future.  To sort through the unimportant so I have space for the very important.  A life filled with love and hope and dreams traveling the path least traveled. We don't get many second chances in life, never mind forty or fifty but I'm taking my ball of thread and moving on with a song in my heart and a needle in my hand.  My blog will be a casualty for a few days while I sort through my non virtual life, but I'll be back with a picture of my bedroom that does not look like a hoarders episode(thankfully it's really not that bad).  And hopefully some pictures of some creativity along the way.

I will probably be answering email so if you need me you know where to find me.  Even rabbits get lonely.  But I hope that while I am sorting out my life, I will inspire you to sort out your own because we only have a very short time here in this body, on this planet, with these talents and dreams and we need every minute to fill our lives with love, and peace and hope.


Marta Brysha said...

It's interesting that you equate falling down a rabbit hole with being in a rut. To me, Alice's journey down the rabbit hole led her to a world of adventure and self reckoning and awareness. As a child I envied Alice. I so wished to go to a magical, nonsensical world where time was immaterial and parents, teachers and rules did not exist. I always had a hard time conforming to the rules (and still do)! Still, I like your message very much and wholeheartedly agree that the thing to do after falling in a ditch is to reassess, reprioritise and dedicate oneself to creativity. The world needs more beauty. I believe my job is to add just a little while I'm here.

Tangled Stitch said...

Thanks Marta, not really a rut. Rather a day when moving right along life happens and I get distracted. At the moment my life is a world of adventure, self reckoning and awareness. Some of it pleasant some of it not so much, but there are lessons to be learned even by distractions.