Starting Over

This post is inspired by my mother who gave up her hopes and dreams so she could foster the dreams of my brother and me.  She did not get a chance to follow her dreams when we grew up. She passed away before she could do that.  I am sitting at that exact moment in my own life and am moving forward to my dreams.  My son is 21 years old.  He will be a senior in college in September.  He will meet a lovely girl and marry and leave to live his own life.  He is old enough to follow his dreams.  He’s a great kid, very sensible and responsible and I am sure he will be able to accomplish anything he wishes in life.

Every moment in life is a new beginning.  A chance to look at the choices we have and choose the path we want to walk down.  We have to find ourselves in the light at the end of the tunnel.  For months my soul has been talking to me, saying turn off the music, meditate, find the things you love, let go of the rest and move in the direction of your dreams. I think I owe it to my mother to follow that advice.

I have taken up meditation which is a practice I find so liberating.  No matter how you feel going into meditation you come out stronger.  More focused. I have started practicing silence also, and just working with my feelings.  Feelings give a more direct link to your heart. Your heart allows you to dream and work without fear of making a mistake.

I have been talking the last few weeks about the christening outfit I had started.  Last night I looked at it and it just didn’t feel right.  It had too many stitches and was very heavy.  So I did the unthinkable and ripped it out.  The old Debbie would have abandoned it in a bag somewhere and moved ahead to another project, but DebraAnn was able to rip it out and start over again.  My heart did not even lurch as I ripped it out. It felt like the right thing to do. And this morning I picked it up again and it just felt right.  I made a mistake, took a few moments and fixed them.

Every mistake we make can be gotten over in a minute if we choose to do it.  We are the masters of our own destiny.  We make the rules, play the game, win or lose. I am going to live my life in passion and inspiration.  I am going to go confidently in the direction of my dreams and live the life I’ve imagined.